一直以来我都觉得Emily has anything but academic..可能这也是很多认识我的人一贯的印象。

 

So I tried my best pretending to be academic and love study by attending quite a lot of so called lectures, talking with fancy professors. But it had little, if any, help to position myself. Until yesterday, I was so amazed to receive the message that i could be admitted to post-graduate study directly as well. WOW! It came up finally. haha. My destination.

 

At the first moment, I did wanna say YES to that offer, coz I do wanna prove to peers that Emily is also a very good student. Emily does have the so called learning ability, not only a people person.  Second, I do feel there r quite a lot of things i can seize if I go on with my study. Like I could have more international exposure by going on exchange, I will have more time to pass CFA, CPA. And even I could go on the fancy internship I am longing for.

 

But finally, i said NO to my heart. As Studying is something that i could bear, yet i am unwilling to do. Though escaping competition for the sucks job hunting season, I have to face it sooner or later. Though taking for granted we could be student for 3 years here, I am still getting old before getting mature.

 

So the reason to post it out, basically comes for 3 aspects

1. I do wanna tell my friends, be proud of emily, since she is 学术型人才 as well.

2. To show off, though like fooling myself.

3. Warning myself: One need to be focused, always remember wut u want. 什么都要往往什么都要不到。

     Be humble, and practice

     

Be humble makes u feel there are a lot of things to learn. I didnt mean u were not humble and u didnt practise, I am telling u how to improve. This is not for ur interview, but for your life long learning, especially when u have some promising job/education, for example, u r a CEO somday. Just try your best and learn from failure/sucess

    

     还是第一次从他那里听来这么正经的话，一年前的这个时候，他offer了我第一份consulting的实习经历，让我better prepare了自己以后变得更好

     他让我了解其实牛人也可以平淡的生活。在他面前，我从来都没有夸奖过他。（因为当时的我就傻傻的以为肯尼迪政府学院在哈佛可能就像复旦网院，至少从他的口气里我得出了这样的结论）

     在他们公司我会真的有被admire和重视的感觉，大家像是一家人！

     他把我推荐给他的朋友，又带给了我不同行业的exposure.

     然后我开始觉得他不适合consulting, 他天生没有奸商的头脑。NGO或者Charity可能更match他，结果他真的又一不小心去了联合国世界经济论坛，就这样常驻日内瓦了。我当时就真的以为他，就像他说的那样，70%的运气，15%是因为Michael Porter帮他写了推荐信，15%是因为他在去面试的飞机上读了一篇文章，后来就真的用上了。

     我们好像从来都没有很serious的交谈过。互相都是半开玩笑的说着智商低也能坚持到今天的活。但是我确实应该感谢他，一个always会surprise我的人。

 

     其实狗屎运这种事情几乎是没有的，所谓的运气只是我们在还没有看清楚一个人的时候给出的暂时评价。

Love ur job, but never fall in love with ur company, coz u dont know when the company stops loving u!

 

最近的生活很mess,想来想去还是这句话最对了~sigh....

 

Emily, take it easy. 出来混哪无外乎要经历这些的！

 

Bless all

Early this week, I came across a heat argument with my close friends( check out some friends i always meet after work in the last 2 months)

 

We soon discovered we did have quite a few conflicts towards LIFE and LOVE's positioning. At some of the points, we even went to opposite extremes...sigh...

 

But we still good friends, we still have quite a lot of things in common, like the food, habits, places 4 travel, even the vision of our carrer, the long long term bullprint. So wut? Fortunately&Unfortunately, It just proved my former hypothesis.

 

Value statement always comes before one's vision. Ur attitude towards life is more important than wut u r doing now, wut u will do later, wuts ur position after ten or twenty years in life.

 

Vision brings partners, co-workers or colleages who will company u in the daily routine work, while value helps 2 find ur Mr/Ms Right, the one who spend life long time with u together. So when your work ended, co-workers changed; When ur value differs, family would be replaced even if the apartment is still.

 

Wut I am thinking now is slightly different from 2 or 3 weeks ago. Believe it or not, Emily is not that swaying of gain and loss! Wut a change! I will be proud of myself if Emily could go on to walk the talk.  

I do wanna say wut bring me most in this company is the last 24 hour of working. I am off work now and having reflections.

 

My boss, is really a good guy, with few words, but has deep understanding of me, his intern. Those things i only discovered this morning, the moment when i am awake after a nightmare.

 

Wut will happen to me as my biggest idea is being rebuilt because of the bloody stupid agency. Screw up once, shame on u; screw up twice, shame on me. How could i escape from being blamed or punished? How could i just leave all the awful mess to him! 

 

Heaps of sorry indeed, i will try my best to make up 4 u after coming back to SH next week.  I am still in the deep sorrow of those who r punished in my case.